It is what it is

I can't stand my husband! At times I wish he would leave or just die or even just fall of the face of the Earth. I swear if I wouldn't have to face God's wrath (or go to jail) I would just kill him myself. It would be too much like right for him to leave... leaving my kids right where they are... pay child support and get the hell out of my life. After 30 years, this is probably one of the only regrets that I have... but its definitely a major one! In due time. Unfortunately because of some of the decisions I have made over the past few years, I can't just up and leave but in due time... in due time!